It has been a long time since I last published a post. Life as a mummy is tiring, hectic, yet incredibly fulfilling. After four years, things have finally started to settle down, and I’m slowly finding my long-awaited “me time” again—time to do things I enjoy, just for myself. And so, I’ve decided to start blogging again.

The past four years haven’t been easy. Balancing work and a newborn left me with barely any time for myself. Like many first-time parents, I went through waves of anxiety, frustration, and unhappiness. At one point, I felt like I had completely lost myself. My mental health suffered, and so did my physical health.

A health check revealed that my hemoglobin and iron levels were extremely low, which required further testing. It was a terrifying moment—I broke down, fearing the worst. Thankfully, it wasn’t anything serious, but my body still struggles to absorb enough iron, leaving me feeling breathless and constantly tired.

That experience was a wake-up call. It made me realise that I need to take care of myself before I can properly care for my child. I started to reflect on my life—what I need to do, and what I truly want for myself. The first step was to focus on my health.

I began taking iron supplements, and while they helped, they also caused some gastric discomfort. To manage that, I added probiotics into my routine, which have helped improve my gut health and reduce bloating. I’ve also started incorporating collagen supplements, which have made my skin feel more hydrated—something I truly appreciate as a busy working mum constantly on the go.

I’m still on this journey of rebuilding my health. Alongside supplements, I’ve made an effort to return to exercise, squeezing in 45-minute gym sessions twice a week. It’s not easy, but it helps me destress and feel stronger, both physically and mentally.

Today, I feel much happier and more like myself again. I hope to be a source of light and positivity—a little rainbow—for my son, Harvey. He loves rainbows, and I think that says a lot about how beautifully simple and colourful a child’s world can be.

And as for me, I’m learning to find that colour again too.